Bitter Sweet

(This is an old post, which never got posted...)

I am sitting at work and i have no motivation to work. None whatsoever, i have a never ending list of things that i need to finish, soon enough, but i cannot find the motivation to work. There are reasons for this and i am not sure if i should write them here. how appropriate it would be if some present/future employer googled for me and found this blog post about me cribbing about my work and such!

Now this coming vacation is making me very nostalgic about my childhood and how things were then and have been since. of course i have grown up, moved from one city to another, gotten educated, married but the heart still craves for those "good old days".

Some of my fondest memories are going with my Dad to get ice cream and he wanting mango and me wanting chocolate and i would be amazed how anyone in their right minds would want to eat a "mango ice cream"!!! Enough already with that fruit! But now i like that so much myself, i actually like fruit flavor ice creams now! it's a far cry from those days. Another very distinct memory is sitting down to tackle math problems with my Dad/Grand Dad and it used to be a huge nightmare, but it was always exciting, always one to "show off", I would try and do math problems from lessons ahead so that when they sat me down for a math lesson, I would amaze them with my shear brilliance :)... Dad would never really praise me...but i would just be happy to let him know that i knew the stuff!...

So now 2 weeks to get back to the place where all the above and more happened...can't wait to touch my pillow!!!...India here we come....

27 days to go!

i am on a constant shot of adrenaline, i am sleeping, walking, talking my impending trip to "India". That 5 letter word brings this huge smile on my face and i begin to dream of who all i will meet, where i will shop, what i will eat and how the trip is going to be so short :(

I am going HOME after 4 years, the house i have a few thousand dreams, laughs, breakdowns and memories in. I am going to go to Delhi, my home, Mumbai, Gourav's home and Jabalpur, my Mom's home town, which is also where i did my Bachelor's from. I can't wait to see my grand father, whom i am very excited to see. After 4 years, in which i have not had a chance to speak with as much as i would like, because of my own incompetence to make those calls and his to hear me. There have been so many new additions to the family, weddings and kids, i can't wait to see them.

And i have this whole new family that i will meet for the first time, which are my own and since my wedding, which is also getting 1 year old :), i have been getting real close to. Having a sister in law and a brother is law is fun! they side with you, very much like your own siblings who fall for your partners charms!

This is going to be one hell of a trip and i cant wait to land. 27 days and counting :)